Rough day

I originally started off titling this post "Rough week" when I realized it had only been one day. Some days are just harder than others, I guess. I think the most frustrating thing is that I can never start AND finish anything. It's like I have good intentions on picking up the kitchen or working on the laundry, but then someone else has a more urgent need. And it's not like their needs are that severe, sometimes Brody just wants to be held. I've tried slinging him and doing things, but some days it is just too much on my back, not to mention that it slows me down and I would rather just get it done quickly hands-free. I continue to make the boys my priority as opposed to a clean house or whatever, but even though Jacob learned something new today it is hard to feel good about it when your house is a mess and you have no idea what you did with your cell phone. Or the mylicon. Or a clean pacifier. Or your sanity. And Aaron is mostly understanding and says "I know you have your hands full", but yet he still likes to point out that my car is a mess or I left a freaking light on in the bedroom or I left a diaper on the changing table and forgot to put it in the trash can. It just can be hard. And some days are harder than others, but some days I just handle them better, too. Ugh. Yesterday, not only was it harder than others, but I handled it poorly too. And today I'm just feeling defeated.

Jacob made yesterday particularly difficult with this new thing he is pulling. He insists on getting on the potty after every diaper change, which is fine. However, now he does this thing where he refuses to let me put a clean diaper on him and he KEEPS asking to get on the potty chair after I literally JUST took him off (and he went!). So, I don't know if he is trying to go poo or not and having trouble and I don't want to take a step back in potty training, so I indulge in every. single. request. Finally, I ask him if he just doesn't want to wear a diaper and he says yes. Well, we haven't bought any big boy under.pants or pullup diapers yet, so I let him just go with pants and no diaper. It was an incredibly tiring day and I still can't figure out which is easier, fighting him every time I try to put a diaper on or taking him to the potty every 15 minutes. And that is just one thing. 100 times a day we come across little things where Jacob wants to be independent and challenges me... he wants milk AND juice, he doesn't want to sit in the grocery cart, he wants to play in the road, etc. I just pick my battles and try to move on with our day. Jacob wants milk AND juice, OK. Jacob wants to play in the road, not OK.

Anyways, just venting. Glad most days aren't like this.